Darkness is easy. 
Leaving it all behind is a piece of cake.
The hard part comes when you have to turn on the lights,
And face the day.　 

Don’t jump to conclusions.
The world doesn’t revolve around you.　 

I like being able to see your reactions to my words, see the way your facial expression changes when I tell you something disappointing, something enjoyable, something exciting, something funny. I want to see you smile and hear you laugh at my jokes and attempts at being hilarious. I want to see you furrow your eyebrows over the little things that you don’t agree with and your eyes to light up when you do agree with me. 

Silences are okay too, every once in a while. Breaks are helpful, it gives us time to sort everything through in our heads, make room for new conversation, store the little yet important details into the corners of our minds. That’s how memories are kept, right? 

And maybe after all of this, we could do it all over again.
Over and over again, until we get tired or run out of things to say.  

There’s this English guy in my sociology class. There’s also a Swedish guy. I love it when they set up a lengthy discussion between the two of them. I just sit back and listen to their lovely voices bantering back and forth.

My brain is filled to the brim with all this lab theory and calculations. Let’s hope this exam isn’t too much of a killer.

I’m sorry I can’t be perfectly happy all the time. I’m not gonna be chatty 24 fucking 7, y’know. I’m human too and I will have off days. That doesn’t give you the right to rage at me for being “distant”. Maybe I’m just not in the mood to fucking talk.　

Stop involving me in all of your bullshit.
Leave me alone. 

Shit happens in life. Over time, you learn to just accept it, push it to the furtherest corner of your mind & move on. It’s not always about getting to the bottom of things. Sometimes, it’s better to leave things as they are rather than putting in unnecessary effort to sort it out. You’ll only be disappointed in the end. Sure, it’s a bit uncomfortable in the beginning to just leave problems unresolved, but sometimes it’s just for the best. You have to be able to distinguish between the issues that need to be solved and those that you’re supposed to just let slide by. People grow up and mature, and with this they learn the ability to suck in a deep breath, square their shoulders and push past whatever’s in their way. Life isn’t a cup of tea that you can just sit down and calmly enjoy. 

When I hear you speak it’s like… ewuihbfjakdsf.
Honestly, I just want to rip all of your clothes off. Unf. 　 

I like to watch people. Is that creepy?

I look out for people who don’t smile. Those people who look confused, or upset; people who sit around with blank, expressionless faces; people who have silent tears streaming down their cheeks. I wonder what’s on their mind. I want to know their stories. I want to know what’s brought them to this present day, doing what they do, bearing those current expressions. 

Sometimes I notice little things. Like how an anxious person twists their hands together, or taps on a table with their fingers. Like how some people suddenly lose their train of thought and just zone out into space. I see their faces go blank and eyes turn hazy. In that short moment, while I see everything, they feel nothing. Like how some peoples’ lips tremble when crying and others tighten. Like the difference between tears of sorrow and anger, defeat, regret, acceptance and even tears of joy. Like how some people will scrunch up their face and furiously wipe away their tears, while others will stand motionless, letting them fall as they may. 

I feel strangely calm when I see a sleeping face. I can see and even sense the vulnerability, yet there’s nothing they can do about it. This doesn’t make me more powerful though, because I would do nothing to ever hurt them. I wonder if they’re dreaming, or just in a deep slumber. I feel myself breathing in time with them, being careful not to wake them. The way they look so peaceful with their eyes closed - they’re most beautiful like this.